My year in review 2010

This has probably been the most best year of my life, so far! I'm expecting more to come.
I feel like since it was my Golden year, it added to the amazing-ness of 2010

January: New Years with amazing girls! Ektaa Nehal Shreya Shirley Megan and ME! <3 Fresh start on a new year semester and even relationships. I cleared up things with a special someone.
February: 2 words, oh my. I went on my first date, I got my first kiss (from someone different than my first date haha) I just had my life turned around in one hour.
March: Trip to DC! One of the best days of my life happened there with Neerali and Milan!
April: Milan asked me out :)
May: Finished my freshman year of college. Traveled to about 7 countries in Europe! Learned SO much, experienced a lot, and ate a ton :)
June: Went to India by myself! Had amazing fun with family, ate even more haha
July: Worked at my dad's coffee shop! Met up with friends. Worked out and actually saw results! Took a train to see Milly! One of the best days of my life!
August: School againnn, 4 month anniversary, another best day of my life!
September: Boys & Girls club! Saw Ludacris?
October: Made Raas team!
November: Performed at Diwali Mela
December: Reunited with my family and my best friends <3 Separated from Milan though. Made the cut for MC for vpd :-o 3.86 GPA!


I swear, these are the FEW of the millions of amazing points of this year! These are just on the top of my head.

I don't want this year to end, but I'm sure if I think 2010 was the best, then this is only the beginning and it's going to get better :)

Goodbye 2010, you have been extremely good to me. Thank you

clocks

I decided to rearrange my room, but first I need to go through all my crates and boxes and drawers of things.

I have found old jewelry,stickers, and notebooks. I found massive folders of everything I've done 1st grade and up! It's so hard to just throw them away, I'm surprised but I've come a long way!

I've come down to a crate of school stuff but I found this certificate I received in 7th grade when I took that robot baby home for a night. It was hell because that girl would cry in the middle of the night if it didn't sleep properly but what an experience! I totally forgot I did that! The certificate was actually a BIRTH certificate and under "NAME" I wrote "Chagni Shah" hahaha Chagni/Champa were the obnoxiously awful nicknames my dad called and continues to call me. Sigh lol

I found all my report cards, I had a lot of C's in 10th grade, oops lol.

I found a notebook from 2nd grade (1998!) with my warm ups which included writing something relating to the prompt. Within 3 months over the pages I saw an improvement in penmanship, spelling, grammar, AND length of how much I wrote in the alloted time for warm ups!

Go 2nd grade me!

I also found newspapers from 10th grade when I was on staff. And my stupid embarrassing humiliating moment when I wrote Gerald Ford's obituary but accidentally put Jimmy Carter's picture up and then on all the issues of the paper they stapled a slip of paper apologizing for the error. Sophomore year was not my finest.

I think I spent most of my time reading and looking over my past years. It was really nice and made me realize how much I've grown up! cue "awwwwwwwwwwwwwww"

Sadly, my room still looks like a piece of shit. And its 1:05 am and I don't know where my children are and I'm kinda tired.

:)

Just spent the best 40 minutes talking to Milan :)
Who knew a conversation with someone you admire across the world can make you feel 99x more happier?

february 27 2010

I love you, desserts

Today I will write my ode to desserts.

Cookies, ice cream, and cakes
How my heart and tongue desire you all.
How easily you make my happiness and my waist line grow.
How I could eat anything with sugar all and every day.
I hate how it takes what seems like eternity to get to you
But seconds to indulge you.
Sometimes, I day dream about you.
The creaminess and sweetness of cold ice cream
The chewiness of warm, oven-baked cookies
The fluffiness of that fluffy cake.
I sometimes catch myself drooling.
My head hurts from wanting you so much.
My stomach growls from wanting you so much.
My tongue salivates from wanting you so much
My tooth aches from wanting you so much.
Oh sweet tooth of mine, how passionate your love for desserts is.
I love you sugar, forever you keep me happy :)


ahahahah, don't judge, i already know i'm a fatty :)

Cracking

I can't stay here anymore

My back is aching
My nerves are going crazy
I feel chaotic in this dead quiet and still campus

One more exam which I'm not fully done studying for.
Quite frankly I don't even want to study, I don't even care anymore!

1pm exam is moved to 2pm. It's like I'm being asked to be tortured.

On top of that, my beautiful boy is leaving me for a beautiful country and to be honest, I'm slightly jealous of a land mass.

I honestly feel like a part of me is gone, I feel a lost of motivation and a desire to sleep all day. Why would I want to get up and get ready or do something productive when my entire heart is going missing for 25 days?

I just want him to return back to me in one piece and in peace :) Speaking of, Happy Early EIGHT Months!

I want to go shopping so bad, sadly I need to save money for Christmas presents. I have no idea what to get anyone. I'm like the worst person to get gifts because of my indecisiveness as you all know tends to take over my state of mind.

Anyways I need to sleep so I can wake up on time and study and pack and get this stupid exam that's plotting to take my life out of the way!

Oh Milan, I hope you have a safe trip

And all my bones began to shake

Blinding - Florence + the Machine

for you

I like having you be the last thing I see when I go to sleep and the first thing I wake up to.



I really love spending every hour of the day with you.
I look forward to weekends because I know stupid class schedules won't keep us from seeing each other.
Every time we laugh loudly about something together, I feel that much closer to you.
Studying with you just makes me want to work harder.
Having you hug me makes me forget about everything else in this world.
It makes me feel so happy knowing you love me for who I am.
I don't do things in front of you because I'm scared of what you'll think and your opinion matters so much to me, even if its over something stupid.
I wish I was BME so you could study me all day.
I love taking care of you but I hope I'm not like another mother to you.
My favorite thing to do is make you laugh. (with me! not at me!!)
I wish we could be roommates.
I really love you and thinking about you makes me smile and I really like smiling!

You can read this, only when I'm not around

for laura

I miss my friends so much and even talking to them for 5 minutes can make my day at least 79.3% better.
So I've just learned about "L'impressionnisme" and I really really like Vincent Van Gogh and he actually had mental illnesses and I think he was gay? but I really like his paintings, especially his bedroom in Arles. There are 5 versions of this painting. He has some more of his own paintings within this painting.

I hate statistics, I feel myself rotting away for 50 minutes three times a week.

Boys & Girls club has been one of the best things that has happened to me. Working with a bunch of kids between 1st through 5th grade, seeing how their cute and sometimes crazy personalities is always fun. I really get happy when I see the student pass his or her reading goal, I get so excited! They are probably like when is this girl going to let me leave this trailer but I could keep them forever! I have a few favorites

Simone!! First time I met her she was in a totally bad mood and didn't read well at all (I wouldn't either if I was mad at something) I asked if she wanted a hug, and I hugged her anyways. After I let go she looks up and asks me, "Will you be here Monday?"

"Yes! I'll be here every Monday and Friday!"

"Can I read with you Monday?"

You know how happy that makes you feel when you hear that?

Kenny, he is an average boy in 3rd (or is it 4th) grade but he's so understanding and willing to learn when he's with me!

I go tomorrow!! :)

LAUARARARARA I MISS YOU AND THIS IS DEDICATED TO YOU SINCE YOU ACTUALLY READ IT AND COME VISIT ME MY GOLDEN GIRL<3

lovelovelove

I'm lucky to have been around the world. I've been to temperatures below freezing and to temperatures above 115 F. I've been 200 m underground and I've been to the Top of Europe.

I've been through numerous low points in my life but I've finally looked past the negativity and now am at the state of absolute happiness.

Don't get me wrong, I complain, whine, wish, and hope for better. I know "happy" people shouldn't but I would like for everyone to know that I am fully thankful of what I have in my life and I don't take anything for granted. I've cherished every moment, person, and obstacle that has affected my life in anyway possible.

I sometimes feel that when I'm home in Charlotte, I'm being held back from my future, I feel that my future is at NC State and my life will "restart" if you will...in August when I move in again. I know that is not true and if I keep thinking that, then I'm just holding myself back. But, I feel limited at home whereas back in Raleigh I'm limitless.

Some words that I will live by today is

"Be better than you were yesterday"

<3<3<3

trois mois

Happy Three Months Cupcake


The worst part is we haven't been together since the second week of May. August (14th to be exact!) has never been so exciting.


I'm in love, and I've never felt happier.
I don't want this to end, ever.

je ne comprends pas

j'adore francais, mais que je plus aime est le fact que j'ecrire beaucoup des mots et je comprends, mais tout ne comprends pas.


je l'aime beaucoup.

love love love amelie poulain, elle est moi, c'est vrai!

j'aime un garcon, il est tres beau. mais il a une petite probleme. il n'est pas "the one" pour moi. je suis tres intelligente, mysterieuse, curieuse, loyale, et petite bizarre. il est blande. il n'aime pas les meme choses. j'adore regina, mais il aime b.i.g.

tres triste, je sais.

oh la la, il est une heure et demie. je besoin dormir mais, dormir est pour les quitters.

oui. a bientot mon ami. ciao.

mon dieu

I don't understand when something I only wished for finally happens and everything seems to be going just as I'd want it to, I have come to realize I don't want it anymore.

I actually hate myself right now, for being so picky and demanding and ungrateful. I always have these high expectations that I formulate in my tiny brain and when life doesn't come out as I expected it to be, I'm just upset.

I think there is something seriously wrong with me. And I know that problem but I don't think I can change it.

so freaking confused.

nilla wafers and milk

I believe nothing, not even Gorgias could persuade my own mother.

My anthropology teacher seems like such a well educated, experienced, brilliant man. Sometimes I feel sad at how the effects of old age, like forgetting what you are trying to say, can question that.

We are all such selfish humans. It is biological we look out for ourselves first and it is completely normal, but I fail to sometimes see that and find a person so greedy. And yes, even me.

Why is religion such a complex concept? Who was there to write down all these "Godly events" and why can't we see presence of God while people of the past could? No wonder people question religion. But if it wasn't real, why do billions of people still follow it today?

Why is that when ever I am upset about something, I always use "I'm just stressed out" as an excuse, even though its the fourth day of the semester? Is it because I'm always upset at the person who asks, and the reason for me being upset is unknown or possibly nonexistent?

How come my professor doesn't praise the fact of such an interesting point brought up by a student and just tells him he or she is wrong?

Why has technology completely transformed us humans? Will this be an advantage of humans biologically in the future, or the start of our race's end?