Not in any way am I fishing for compliments or striving to be a typical girl, but these past few days I've NOT been happy with me and how I look.

Shallow, I know.

I feel obese, disgusting, abnormal. Clothes don't look right on me. I'm not satisfied with my face, make up or no make up. I feel like every position I stand or sit is offensive to onlooker's eyes. I feel ugly! And that isn't common, I must admit I have decent self confidence. Not sure why, but I feel like I'm not beautiful like I used to feel.

Please change soon because it's a torturous feeling and thought process to be trapped in your own body.

Am I prepared or ready for the new and (in my dramatic voice) final year of my undergraduate career?

No! Class is tomorrow and I'm acting like I'm a free bird with no worries in the world, when the quite opposite is actually occurring.

Save moi s'il vous plait

Inspiring

Liu Xiang's story 

Research Assistant

I've probably whined and complained about my complete volunteer work as an RA this summer. I did work such as hundreds of emails weekly, copy + pasting hundreds of documents, and more related tedious tasks.

I took this position wanting more experience in the research field, even though I was informed it was unpaid and I wouldn't receive school credit either. However, I wanted to work for this graduate student and somehow assist with his research, for at the end of the day, this experience was assisting me.

I received an email today from Amazon, that I've received a $50 gift card from him. I was completely surprised! I never expected such a sweet gesture, especially since I wanted to help out anyways! He seriously didn't have to do that, but it just makes me so appreciative of the people I'm surrounded by. I feel appreciated!

:)

Mon Frère

So broseph and I realized we created a kinda new tradition between us two, watch a funny movie the night (or two) before I head out to school again (since State likes to start abnormally early).

Last year it was 30 Seconds or Less with the lovely Ruth! (We had to see Aziz)
This year, we went to a garba event, dipped out real early and watched The Campaign (My love for Will).

I'm really proud of my brother, I've seen him evolve in the past few months being home. No matter what they     say, he is a damn hard worker. He used to have this temper that would scare you so bad, but he's improved himself and I've noticed he has no let his anger get the better of him.

Good job, bro

Boo! Scary eyes runs in the fam.

surprise!

It's probably because it's the summer, but I've found complete satisfaction and a new found desire in enjoying my own company.

Week

Cards I'm made for the lovely therapists I shadowed all summer

                                                        Raksha bhandan with my brother

Naan with pesto spinach tomatoes and paneer, mmm

yikes

Got a second job for next year! It's refreshing to know someone is willing to hire me for a this side job, however my stress levels have already risen thinking about my schedule. It's going to be really difficult juggling school, work, GREs, and grad school applications. At the same time, I'm too much of a fat girl to starve.

Trishna

Really lovely movie, brief dialogues, yet intense story line. Loooooove Freida and especially Riz ;)

c'est official

I've completed 100+ hours shadowing a few occupational therapists