Guinness World Record

I just participated in the largest Zumba class an hour ago, right behind my dorm!
So many people, so much heat, but so much fun!
Archana and I were in the 1st row, I'm wearing white

It was 30 minutes, no breaks, but totally worth it :) Wish I had a red shirt though

thank you

Yesterday, I realized how much I appreciate everyone around me.

In class, I have sat next to amazing girls that initially I never talked to. Now that we're getting closer, it saddens me that today / tomorrow are the last days of class. In calculus my friend on the left and I would joke about so many things and she would always compliment on my outfits! That felt good to hear 1st thing in the morning<3

Yesterday in Anthro, the two girls on either sides of me helped me come up with an answer before my teacher went down the row when going over homework (which I really didn't do) and saved me from some intense embarrassment. And every class we have great conversations too that I really do appreciate.

Not even the people I sit next to but the two guys I'm going to France with, they always ask what's up and see if I'm doing okay! They have gone out of the way to give me rides, FOOD, homework help, and so much more!

My best friends and friends and even the people who smile to me while crossing the street, thank you! You all help me appreciate life more

eat pray and love

Instead of writing my 4th and final paper of the semester that is due Friday, I decided to spend 2 hours and 10 minutes watching Eat Pray and Love, a film I've been dying to see since it came out.

(oops I haven't read the book.)

Do I feel like a saint, or a wise old lady, yes I do. But during the entire movie, I felt sad. I felt empty inside. I felt a lack of inspiration in my entire body. Am I going to break up with Milan, date a guy 10 years younger than me, dump him and then go to Italy, India, and Indonesia leaving all my belongings and loved ones behind for a year? Possibly.

Joke. But I really feel confused and sad and weird and in a need to talk to someone about my feelings without being judged. I feel like lately I've been in such a grievance that I'm longing for it to end.

Life is beautiful. I know it. I've seen it's beauty. I've embraced and admired and adored it. I use past tense not that I'm done for good now, but that I have before and I'm more than ready to do it again.

I miss the feeling when I was little, that everything new to me was so life changing, and eye opening. I miss finding joy and beauty and knowledge in little things. I hate living day to fucking day with no surprise. I miss being excited for little things. Right now, I feel like a rock. Emotionless. I know I said I was sad and weird like 2 seconds ago but I feel BLAH and usually that means sad but now that I'm writing, it might mean that I feel nothing right now.

I'm sick and tired of waiting for Friday to roll around. Life isn't about weekends.

Dhobi Ghat

I watched the most beautiful Indian film tonight. I don't know if it was simply the movie, Aamir Khan <3, or the fact that I watched it with my whole family cozied up in my parents' bed, but it was truly beautiful.

p.s.
Vote for my girl Khusbhu Patel, takes 2 minutes and you can do it everyday until May 4th! She's super close to winning this poetry contest, and honestly, her poem is beyond beautiful, just like her! Please and thank you, I really appreciate your help guys!

http://apps.facebook.com/rugby_poets_club/poems/view/610

new trend I'm in the process of achieving:
bold brows.

the worst part is that I need to grow them out for another few weeks, but I just hate when the eyebrow lady over threads my eyebrows to skimpy little lines. When one hair grows (which as an Indian girl I'm born with the unfortunate gene of instant hairiness), it looks awful! So with thick brows, not only does it stand out, I don't have to worry about that one stray hair.

I don't want those overly dark monstrous eyebrows, but I like them thicker than the ones I have.
get it?

Justin Beiber. I don't really listen to his music and I don't keep myself updated about his life. His songs when I do hear them are catchy and good, he's a talented young man!

What upsets me is hearing and seeing hatred going towards him! I know everyone has to deal with it as a celebrity, but I think he's suffering more than anyone!

What caused this rant? I saw a facebook page, "If you had 2 bullets and were stuck in a room with Osama Bin Ladin, George Bush, and Justin Beiber, what would you do?" --- "Kill Justin Beiber, twice."

Really guys? So funny right? No. No one should give him so much hate especially at this age, what if someone did that to you when you're a teenager and trying to figure yourself out and trying to put yourself out there? And someone threatens to kill you? I saw videos of "fans" throwing water bottles at him, sending him threats, and you see all over youtube "Beiber sucks."

It's not okay guys, why can't people follow the rule that don't do anything that you wouldn't want others to do to you.

I feel like I'm forever cleaning/organizing my room. It's getting annoying, especially since this house remodeling has all my things into bags and boxes. Also moving out from my closet I mean dorm is just bring more things for me to find a place for. Ugh someone do this for me.

Spent my day with my favorite Zhara. Bought a dress, feel like crap for spending my last $20 on it though :\

OMG is it bad to say that I look better in that dress then the model?? Idk, this image makes the dress look so ugly :( I just tried it on and I'm now debating on returning it. I needed a dress for going out Thursday night and it looked soo well in the fitting room but now I want my $22 back...in store credit :\ Sigh.

one year

Happy One Year, Milan. We've been our rockiest these past few days but we're staying strong and letting things flow. Since I last wrote, things have been looking up for us. Lets hope it stays that way.

I miss those days where you feel like you're on top of the world,  and I don't mean a streak of pretty good days. I mean that feeling where you KNOW and can FEEL the power and love and happiness and success out of EVERYTHING you do, from waking up in the morning, acing a test, or even ordering your lunch.

I KNOW I have a lot of issues, I'm pretty pessimistic. I'm a jealous person and I am always expecting things. I can be selfish but also very indecisive. I can be annoying and the biggest complainer you know. I'm never definite and I am super lazy. You can say I'm pretty harsh on myself, but I know it's true. I really want to change that! I see soo many girls who are so happy with what they have , like any person SHOULD be! They don't get jealous of other girls who have good things going for them, they show how happy they are! I want to be that! I'm a young almost 20 year old woman and I still act like I'm 10, and I HATE THAT. 

my love life is falling in a downward spiral and i'm getting motion sickness. 

home

this weekend AND next weekend, SO EXCITED to just relax at home<3

furious

doesn't even do justice to how i feel right now.

friday

what a fucking amazing day

98% on my calc test
100% on my calc quiz

doing work at work!

boss loves me!

did relay for life and donated
made pasta and had strawberry cake! and i went to a few parties tonight with FRENCH people and i feel good as hell right now.


ONE QUESTION READERS:
to those who don't ever comment..why not? i like hearing ffeedback/opinions from people who read about my PERONSAL life, it doesn't hurt to hear a word or two about how you feel about what i'me tlakin about. i mean this blog is for me but knowing i get a minimum of 10 readers a day...i mean...you can at least lemme know who you are ya knw?

DON'T JUDGE

YO'URE WELCOME

Mon rêve 2

Last night of the 5 hours I slept, I envisioned a dream that I was sleeping with Sean Combs.

l'amour

Mon rêve

I had a dream last night, where this French Grad student I know who teaches French classes at State (he is very handsome) wanted to get to know me more and hang out and watch French things together. Wow, it was really much more complex than what I just wrote, trust me, so many people were involved, like my current French professor and some random people in my life, like real random. Like my friend's boyfriend's brother or the girl who sits next to me in a class. Très bizarre, non? But which dream isn't?

bumper sticker

stop drop and roll won't help you in hell.

broke?

don't tell me you're "broke" when you spend money on weed, beer, hookah, and at the golf range every week.

"You must hate me"
"No Raj, I don't love you enough to hate you."

backgrounds

I like change.
Temporary is sometimes nice.

favorite song

Home - Edward Sharpton & The Magnetic Zeros

It's been my ringtone since August, and it has never gotten old. I love this song and this cover video is precious. Parth showed it to be a long time ago.

Makes me happy.

epuise

Sometimes I want to write my feelings out and it ends up sounding weird or I can't write anym-